Back in HUKM..

Well, i'm back in KTDI and looking forward to being a 4th year student..actually i've been nauseating since this morning..dont know what kind of feeling i have..is it nervous or excited or am I afraid, i dont know..it's not like i've never been to the ward but maybe because i've been enjoying for these two months of holidays..i'll start with psychiatry posting tomorrow and i actually kind of nervous plus with the new posting mates..earlier this evening there was a tv program about psychiatrists who worked in a hospital in JB and one of them interviewed was no other than my father's cousin who was graduated from UKM too..of course i knew what she was but we never speak of how she deals with her patient and all..then on the tv program, they showed her routines in the hospital dealing with the patients and interviewed her of her work..the reporter had asked whether she feel afraid dealing with the mentally ill patients and she said only in the beginning and as times goes by she became used to the patients and not at all afraid of them anymore..the interview at least had inspired me to start the new year tomorrow with a new spirit..but to tell the truth, i cant get rid of the nervous..it seems that it's not only me who feel that way..have been chatting with syafiqah just now and she is very anxious too..okay, that's all for tonight..i hope to adapt with the new posting mates and settle down quickly enough..till the next posting..daa~

updating......

x tahu la knape malas sgt nk update blog nih...walaupun ade cite nk tulih tp hanye t'smpan dlm kepale je..huhu..k la..cutih nih aku x berbuat ape2 selain duk rmh, tolong mak aku, teman atuk aku berbual, makan, tidur dan lain2 keje yg aku rase nk buat bile aku rajin..hehe..

ingat x rmh puzzle kayu 3D yg aku buat dulu tuh? aku ade buat lg satu..n skrg aku rase x cntik klu dibiarkan begitu saje, so aku plan nk syelek and varnish tp bhn2nye x de lg, so tergendala dulu..
selama cuti nih aku ade menghabiskan satu trilogy cerite yg setiap bukunye adelah setebal buku harry potter tuh..so byangkanla aku menghabiskan kesemue 3 buku tuh dlm mase lbeh kurang 2 minggu..cite die mestila jenis yg aku suke iaitu ala2 harry potter..aku suke citer yg watak utama die kanak2 or teenager lg2 if it is non-fictioned story. i like to imagine things as i read, so in a non-fiction/fantasy stories i was free to imagine things as i like..buku cite yg aku bace tuh mmg aku x pernah dengar sebelum ni. memule aku nk beli buku lain tp at the last minute while queueing to pay the book, there's suddenly this one book that caught my eyes. and when i pick it up, i decided to buy it instead of the former book..well, i guess it's really the book that choose the reader after all..haha..never heard of that quote..well, buku itulah permulaan trilogy tuh and the next wekend aku pergi lagi ke kedai buku untuk membeli sambungannya iaitu buku kedue dan the last one..ia mengisahkan seorang teenager girl yg dtg dr masyarakat kelas bawahan and discover that she is a magician who is supposed to be only within the high class community in the place where she lived. the story was how her journey and life adapting to her new community and at the same time try not to abandon her community where she comes from..it was a great story eventhough the english is quite high for me..at least aku fahamla jln citenye..

and then baru2 nih aku rase teringin nk lukis gmbar gune krayon..izzati la yg memule ajar aku gune krayon nih..memule tuh die tunjuk je lukisan2 die and suruh aku comment, but then rase cam seronok je so aku try my first lukisan mase kt tnjung karang..aku suke lukis gambar2 dari hasil karya thomas kinkade..Thomas kinkade nih kebanyakan karyanye adela berunsurkan country cottage2 with flowers blooming surrounding the house, gazebos, sceneries, etc..lukisannye x byk org or animals (which i like coz aku mmg x reti lukis org and animals)..and
tempat2 sebeginila yg selama ini mmg memjadi mimpi aku untuk kesana dan mengalami cara hidup disana..tp aku tahu itu semue is just in my dream..so balik ke jln cite, aku pn siapkanla lukisan krayon aku yg ketige..

satu lagi kegiatan aku yg hampir setiap hari aku buat semase cuti nih ialah mendesign dan meluahkan kreativiti setakat yg ade kat website www.myminilife.com ..aku memule dpt tau site nih drpd application kat friendster..and since then, aku aktif di site itu..sekarang dh ade 5 minihomes yg sebenarnye satu je drpd 5 tanah tuh adalah benar2 minihome..yg lain2 tuh, ade library, boutique , village and x tau lagi satu tuh nak buat ape..still mencarik idea..

dan berikut adalah gmbar2 di hari lahir saya pd tanggal 5 april yg lalu..(haha..hari lahir??)me and my sis (mahira is not in the picture)

presents from my sisters and mom

Nami's Back!!!!!!!!!!!!

The whole house were woken up by my mom's joyful screaming this morning:

Mak : Bang! Nami balik bang! ( with a very loud voice calling for my dad)

Then my sisters and I woke up both surprised by the noise made by mom and also the message in it..

Fariza : Apa? Nami?
Adina : Ha?

We rush downstairs ( except my dad who was in the toilet at the moment) and there he was, the long lost beloved cat, Nami!

Me, Fariza, Adina, Mahira : Nami!!!

He was so thin, ill-looking and meowing with hoarseness as if he had sore throat..he was following my mom (asking for food). Unfortunately his food (whiskers' biscuits and fish) had been all given to my aunt for her cats. Mom search for any small fish
in the freezer that can be given to him and found 2 fish which she then boiled and feed Nami. He ate as if he had not been eating for years! Then, my sister bathed him for he was so dirty! ( stray cat la katekan..) Lucky for him, my parents were about to go to market this morning so, my mom bought Nami's fish and stopped by the pet's shop to buy whiskers' biscuits. After coming back from market and had their breakfast, Mom and Dad brought Nami to the Vet for medical check-up. He was given IV fluid 200 ml as the doctor said he was dehydrated. The doc also said Nami had reduced about 2 kg based on the record he had and his health is very poor . Nami has a fever and has lice infestation with also 'kurap'. So Nami currently is caged until the fever has subsided and he had being shampooed and free from the kutu and kurap..

We were surprised and are very delightful with Nami's return..Before this morning, we had already accepted the idea that we might never see him again and dare not to hope highly..who expect to find him after 87 days he was missing..everything might had happened to him and we can only wish for his safety and survival..Once my mom said that she, out of nowhere, suddenly thought of Nami and believed that it might be Nami too was thinking of home..I guess maybe it's true since the bond between my mom and Nami was so strong..But today, his return was very unbelievable..My father almost immediately spread the delightful news to our close relatives..See how joyful my father was..We considered those period of time which Nami was missing as the time when Nami went for an adventure and now had returned..My Dad joked by saying if only Nami can talk and just like us all, surely he had made a blog himself to tell the adventure he had..haha..

Owh, i forgot to tell my mom's story of the 'Jejak Kasih' moment..As part of her weekend routine, she was going to the wet market this morning with my Dad..After she had take her bath and wait for my Dad, she went downstairs. As she was in the kitchen, she heard a cat's meow and thought that it was just like Nami's voice..She was just taking chance by looking through the back door and was very surprised to see Nami! She quickly find the door keys and opened them to get to Nami closely and to make sure it was really him..once she opened the door, Nami charged through the door and went inside and start scratching at the chair as he was used to. When my mom had confirmed it was Nami then went the screaming which woke us all..

Well, last but not least, WELCOME BACK, NAMI!!!!!!!

AmniinmA's Library

Gurindam Si Gadis


Tersebut kisah seorang gadis,

Bersama bondanya ingin ke kedai,
Alangkah malangnya nasib mereka,
Tatkala saja ingin bertolak,
motokar pula tiada hidupnya,
Puas sudah dicuba-cuba,
Namun hasilnya tiada juga,
Dipanggil Ah Khong, si mekanik berdekatan,
Rupanya akibat kerosakan bateri,
Ditukar yang baru, melayang duit bunda

Niat dihati diteruskan jua,
Rezeki kami parkir mudah sekali,
Ke 100 yen kami tujui,
Membawa bunda yg telah lama tidak ke situ,
sambil menyelam ku minum air,
Ku juga membeli sebarang dua,
selesai di situ, ke 7 eleven pula,
Amanah dari adikku untuk membeli prabayar mobilnya,
Ku beli juga slurpy dan bihun goreng,
Buat santapan bunda yang kelaparan.

Akhirnya sampai ke destinasi utama,
Ke Cosway untuk membeli bekalan,
Bekalan sabun segala jenis,
Dari yang serbuk hingga ke cecair,
Aku hanya sebagai peneman bunda,
Juga membantu mengangkut barangan,
Tatkala di sana, terjumpa kenalan,
Kenalan bunda dan kenalan si gadis,
Kenalan bunda rupanya si jiran,
Kenalan si gadis rakan seangkatan,
Terkejutnya si gadis tidak terkira,
Tidak disangka bertemu Ting di situ,
Apa lagi memakai kemeja-T JKM,
Rupanya belum ke kampung halaman,
Yang jauhnya nun di negeri bumi kenyalang.

Selesai saja segala urusan,
Tibalah masa untuk berangkat pulang,
Tiba di rumah, terus ke dapur,
Siapkan makanan untuk santapan malam,
Sambal tumis sotong hidangan utama,
Yang menjadi idaman si gadis berbulan sudah,
Akhirnya hajat tercapai sudah,
Perut kenyang hatinya senang

Sekian saja kisahnya di sini,
Buat santapan saudara saudari sekalian,
seandainya ada peluang dan cerita,
Akan dicoret lagi disini..

Hari makan sedap

Hmm.. ni alkisah semalam..sepatutnye aku tulih semalam cite nih tp disebabkan tahap kemalasan untuk menulis blog yg sangat tinggi, maka alkisah semalam di jadikan topik hari ini..Aku duk kat rumah ni asyik makan sedap je..bkn je semalam, hari2 pn same..mak aku pulak bising kate akulah penyebab die makan banyak..mane taknye, dari minggu lepas dah plan nak makan ape minggu nih..setiap ari untuk minggu nih dah ade menu..weekend lepas dh cari bahan..haha..so, tengah hari semalam, kitorang makan pulut nasi ngan kelapa parut ngan ikan rebus goreng..fuh sedap gile..dh lame x mkn, sekali sekala mkn cam org dolu2, best gak..pekene pulak ngan teh susu yg mak buat..pastu utk makan malam, aku ngan mak aku dah plan nk masak western food..sesaje je, bknnye ade ocassion pape pn..mak aku ckp nk masak ayam panggang, pastu aku cadang wat desert sbb takut x kenyang coz x de nasi..pikir punye pikir aku suggest try desert yg macam dlm cite ala carte kat ntv7 tuh mase episode artis atilia, popia pisang atau name glamornye 'banana springroll'..so, menu mlm semalam ialah:

Roasted chicken with BBQ brown sauce

Boiled vegetables ( carrot & Broccoli )



Fried wedges



Banana spring roll with chocolate

Yg ayam n brown sauce to recipe mak aku n die yg uruskan..aku handle bhgian sayur, kentang dan desert..karot n broccoli tuh aku celur je dan gaul sket karot ngan marjerin and gula..yg kentang tuh, aku gaul ngan garam and black pepper, then adik aku yg goreng..pastu aku wat popia pisang tuh..nasib baik mak aku pn tengok cite tuh..aku x de la ingat sgt resipinye..tp senang je buat die..juz gulung pisang bersama sedikit gula perang dan serbuk kayu manis di dalam kulit popia, pastu goreng sehingga kuning keemasan..(cewah, hehe) then hidangla ngan melted chocolate or chocolate sauce..aku cari yg dh siap dlm botol tu kat Giant tp x de, so pakai cokelat masakan pn bolehla..memandangkan x de strawberry utk dijadikan hiasan (seperti dlm cite tuh), aku gunela ulasan limau sebagai ganti..Kononye nk wat desert tp aku ckp kat mak aku, nanti klu mkn ayam dulu, klu dh kenyang, mesti x nk mkn desert dh..so, tukar plan jadikan appetizer..bersemangat gile aku, mak aku dan adik aku kat dapur..adik aku, Ija, siap hiaskan meja ala2 hotel gitu dan buatkan air oren..nasib baik ayah aku balik dari ofis awal gak la semalam kalau di'compare'kan hari2 biase..so, surprise la kononnye utk ayah..Siap kene puji sedap lagi..hehe..Tapi mmg Alhamdulillah la, semue makanan manjadi semalam dan sedap..Adik aku kate lg sedap dr restoran..bleh la lepas ni kitorang bukak restoran lak..haha..Okay, tu alkisah makanan semalam..Kalau semalam makan dah beriye, ari ni menu nye simple abisla..Budu dan Ayam masak madu..Kalau dh makan budu tuh mestila ade singgang ikan..sedap..Haila..bile la aku nk diet nih..

Sabtu yang 'so-so' sibuk..

8.00 am : Baru bangun!! terlambat bangun..rushing siap2 utk appointment Dr Han kol 8.45
8.15 am : Bertolak ke PJ ngan ayah dan mak..
8.45 am : Jumpe ngan Dr Han..
10.00 am: Tunggu Pak Teh abih jumpe Dr Han sebab ayah nk tunjuk Pak Teh restoran D'Naim yg jual nasi kukus ayam berempah yg ayah ckp sedap..
11.00 am: Sampai kat kedai tuh, mak cik yg jual tuh kate kol 1 baru siap nasi tuh..so, kitorang makan nasi lemak dulu sbb sume x breakfast lg..
11.30 am: Lambat lg nk tunggu nasi kukus tuh, so pergi PPUM jenguk sepupu ayah yg sakit..Due2 suami isteri masuk wad. Isteri sbb operate buang breast cancer, suami fluid overload secndary to CCF..
12.30 pm: Pergi lawat sepupu Mak Teh, Ije, kat Kolej ke-3, UM..
1.00 pm: pergi ke kedai td untuk beli nasi kukus tuh..Kitorang beli 12 bungkus semuenye( 6 utk family Mak Teh, 6 utk kitorang)
2.00 pm :Sampai kat rumah dan makan..Aku rase Nasi kukus ayam dara kat HUKM lg sedap..(Mak and adik2 pn ckp m cm tuh)
5.30 pm: Siap2 nk pergi KTDI untuk memunggah barang aku ke bilik baru (aku, ayah, Ija, and Adina). Mak x ikut sebab kaki die sakit..Punyela banyak barang aku..Penat betol..Nasib baik bilik baru Grouond Floor..x yah naik tangge..Sian Ayah sakit blakang dtg balik..Itu baru punggah barang je..belum mengemas lagi..proses mengemas, Ija dah setuju nk tolong aku buat sket2 time cuti nih..( thanx a lot semua!!)
7.00 pm: dah abih punggah barang dan pulang ke rumah..Aku main game jap, solat maghrib, mandi, solat isyak, masak dan makan malam..
9.30 pm : menulis blog dan main tenet..

so, itulah aktiviti harian ku hari ini..

Kini kembali..

hallu...
setelah abisnye minggu exam yg sangat memenatkan itu, akhirnye aku kembali ke blog ku ini..
ari ni aku rase cam nak berbahase ibunda dan malas nk tulis in english..
sekarang aku cuti dan menunggu result yg entah bile keluarnye..tp aku mls nk pikir lg psl result..
Overall aku x rase slamat ngan performance aku mase exam ari tuh especially Medicine..ntahla..tgkla rezki aku cmne..

Rabu lepas aku dh pegi opis KTDI dan telah mendaftar utk hostel semester depan..
aku, K.Has, dan Marina dah sepakat nk berpindah ke bilik baru di mana kitorang leh duduk serumah..Setelah hampir setahun duk kat bilik aku di blok F tuh dengan 3 org lagi bdk nursing, aku terase tension dan slalu depress sbb jauh ngan kengkawan..walaupun bdk nursing tuh baik2 blake tp manekan same ngan kawan seperjuangan..so, rabu lepas, aku n Fariza pegila bilik aku di KTDI untuk mengemas barang2 aku (thanx a lot ija!)..tp barang2 aku x pindahkan lg ke bilik baru walaupun knci dh pulangkan kat opis..aku mintak tolong bdk2 nursing (Syie, Fiza and Iffah) jagekan sampai weekend ni..memandangkan diorang ade kat bilik weekend ni dan leh tolong bukak pintu rumah (sbb pintu rmh pn aku dh kene pulangkan), jd lehla pndahkan weekend, lagi2 ade keluarge utk tolong aku angkut brg2..utk kemas brg2 di bilik baru, mngkin aku n Fariza leh kemas sket2 time cuti ni..Rumah aku tuh sekarang ade sorang senior 5th year tp bln 3 nih dah abih..so, maybe bile dh start sem depan, ade satu blk kosong.

'My first Homemade Sushi'

Ari nih, aku dah buat sushi pertama aku seperti yg aku ckp kat nani..terime kasih kpd Nani yg mengajar kat blog die care nk buat sushi. Setelah memberi barang2 dan bhn2 keperluan , ari nih, dgn dibantu mak dan Fariza, akhirnye menjadik jugak sushi tu.. seronok betol buat sushi sendiri lagi2 time menggulung tuh..mcm2 rupe ade mule2 tuh tp dh beberape kali buat jadik jugakla..bile dh buat sendiri, tau2 jela mesti nk banyak isinya..sampai tersembul2 isinye..haha..walaupun rasenye x same cam kar kedai, tp at least puas leh wat sendiri..x pe, lain kali taula nk modify ape..td pun mase buat mule2, x cukup seaweed..abis kat aku ngan Ija je..Nasi dan Inti punyela bnyk lg..so, tgh hari td aku n Ija pegila kedai "100 yen" mencari seaweed tuh..

'100 yen Shop, Tmn Connaught, Cheras'

aku memang suke sangat kedai tuh sbb brg2 kat situ comel2 n dijual ngan harge murah2..mostly brg2 hanrgenye RM4.90..agaknye nilai 100 yen tuh bersamaan ngan RM4.90 kot..dah name pun 100 yen, surela kedai tuh jual brg2 keluaran Jepun..banyak bende pelik2 ade kat situ..yg challenging nye, kite kene agak ape kegunaan die sebab label and instruction brg2 tuh sume dlm bhse Jepun! Huhu..Mengharapkan gambar kat paket tu je (tu pun kalau ade)..Cume satu je sebab aku x slalu leh pergi kedai tuh, susah sgt nk parking..td pun, rezki aku sbb ade parking..aku ingat klu x de, nk gi beli seaweed kat Giant je..akhirnye, bkn seaweed je yg aku beli..aku ade beli bekas air, highlighter, penyendal pintu dan sushi rolling mat( saiz besar)..Aku suke betol ngan satu bekas air yg aku beli nih..sebelum isi air, bekas die kempis dan leh dilipat..senang nk bwk gi memane..bile dh isi air, kembong je..unik gile..Ija pn beli due tige bende gak kat situ..Kedai tuh sentiasa buat aku rase nk pergi lagi lain kali..

'Bekas Air sebelum dan selepas diisi air'

AmniinmA's casa

29th January 2008

It was Asmal's birthday on 29th January which was last Tuesday.
I went to her room at 11.55 pm on the night before bringing both mine and Marina's present for Asmal.
Marina was there since 9.30 to study with Asmal and asked me to bring hers for surprise.
We (Asmal, Marina, Zana, Atiqah and me) celebrated her birthday at Pizza Hut on the next evening.
Asmal actually wanted to 'belanja' us at Domino's Pizza but since there was no Domino's centre for dine-in nearby, she 'belanja' us at Pizza Hut instead..
When flipping through the menu, we suddenly noticed an offer at the bottom of the menu which said that there will be a treat for any birthday girl/boy..
So, we asked the waiter to bring it for asmal (which was later eaten by all of us)..
Asmal had ordered a set of a large pizza, a regular pizza, 6 bowl of mushroom soups, breadsticks and a jar of coke..
the treat for Asmal was a thin crust with a scoop of Vanilla ice cream and chocolate and strawberry sauce..yummy..
we ate and gossiping and laugh as if the restaurant was ours (luckily there was not many people around)..
we had such a great time then especially with atiqah and zana who both are very 'gile-gile' with their stories..
Below are some photos taken at Pizza Hut..

marina & Atiqah

Zana, Asmal & me

The so-called birthday cake..

Dream House..

Hmm..this is not my dream house actually..i just want to share my hobby with all of you..
Have you ever heard of 3-D puzzle? It's a kind of puzzle which we assemble the pieces and join them to become a 3-D things..I had made quite a number of this kind of puzzle but this one is the biggest of all..the previous ones are cardboards but this one is made up of plywood. And it made up such a lovely doll house..I knew it would be more lovely if it is painted but i am not good in painting..so, better leave it be..i found that this kind of thing helps me in releasing my stress.. eventhough the instruction was confusing, it was such a satisfaction after it was finished..

This is the anterior view..

The posterior / interior view

And these are the furnitures that i made with the extra pieces of the house puzzle..i made these to fill in the interior so that it was not empty..

Chiropractic..

So, today was my appointment with the doctor for my back problem..
His name is Dr Han Yoon Jeong, a korean chiropractor..
Chiropractic is actually a system of diagnosis and treatment based on the concept that the nervous system coordinates all of the body's functions, and that disease results from a lack of normal nerve function. Chiropractic employs manipulation and adjustment of body structures, such as the spinal column, so that pressure on nerves coming from the spinal cord due to displacement (subluxation) of a vertebral body may be relieved..
As i said in my previous posting, both my parents used to meet him for their back problems.
So, this morning i went there with my mom and met him..
I was quite surprised as I filled in the form at the registration counter, the questions were the one that we, the medical student, use to ask the patients during the history taking..
and at this centre, the one who is doing the history taking is actually a paper!
Even the chief complaint is one of the questions..haha
I guess that is the way the doctors there saving their time and only concentrate in history of presenting illness (HOPI) during the consultation..
After telling Dr Han my HOPI, he asked me to lie face down on an examining bed for him to examine my vertebral alignment.
He told me that my pelvic bone was tilted and that my left leg was shorter than the right..
He corrected the misalignment( using his elbow)-which was painful at certain place where he pressed down..(my mom told me later that she even screamed a bit when it was her time)..
Then, he explained to me how the misalignment and posture (such as sitting for a long time and bending down) can compress my intervertebral discs and also the spinal cord ( which explained the pain).
Usually in more elderly people, they get this problem due to degenerative disease of the vertebrae, but it is very unlikely in me..
So, he asked me to get an X ray of my spine (to rule out any spinal curvature abnormalities) an meet him again next week..
There was no exact diagnosis for my problem yet..(not until he can confirm with the Xray)
However, he advised me to do the exercise(that my dad taught me) and avoid anything that can trigger the pain..
Later, he asked me to go for an electric therapy (also called as 'muscle sting') after that which was done by his assistant in a cubicle just outside his room ..
I was massaged with a massager before the assistant placed a few patches ( looks like ECG electrodes) on my lower back and hip..
Then she set the voltage of current (she started at a lower voltage and increased it 10 minutes later) and the current wave was set on and off ( which means, there was current wave for 4 seconds and stopped for the next 4 seconds)..
It was ticklish initially ( felt like when i was at the fish spa) and felt much better as time pass by..
So, that's the story about it..
I was supposed to meet Dr Han on the next Tuesday,
but suddenly remembered that I have examination briefing that day..
Fortunately the briefing will be in the evening..
Means that I still can go for the appointment in the morning..
Okay , GTG now..have to do the exercise.. :>

backache...

i'm having this problem quite for a while now..
at first, it was not so bad, only ince in a blue moon..
recently, i can't even finish my respiratory examination which only takes about 7-10 minutes..
and i can't sit down at my study desk for a couple of hours now without feeling backpain..
i think it was postural backache since it was aggravated by bending down and prolong sitting..

i told my parents about this and they told me to exercise and will bring me to see their doctor..
you see, both my parents have some kind of problem with their back-my mom's is upper back, and my dad's is lower-and now they are under follow ups with their doctor..
and this evening, my father taught me the simple exercise that his doctor recommended to him..
we've decided to go and see the doctor next friday since it's a holiday..
it will be only my mom and me because my father is going back to his parent's home in terengganu..
i hope it will at least lessen by the time it's exam week..
so that i will not be distracted during exam..
Ya Allah, pulihkanlah penyakit hambamu ini dan lindungilah aku dari penyakit-penyakit lain..amin..

serves me right!!

oh my goodness..today is a very tiring day..
i slept for only an hour last night..
no, actually it was this morning..
I slept at 5 am and woke up at 6! why?
haha..it's all because i had to finish the case write up because the dateline is today..
serve me right!
I was dilly dallying in starting the assignment and when there was only a day to meet the dateline, there were so much left to do..
and today is also the assessment day!
Where Dr Fauzi (my examiner) will randomly pick his student for the assessment today..
lucky enough for me for not being picked as the one to be assessed today..
i haven't prepared much yet..
but i can't stand the palpitation and chest tightness for any longer that i wish it was me just now..
plus, i already know the case before hand..
so, next week would be my turn..
please God, don't let me the last to be assessed..
nobody would accompany me to go to the ward then..huhu..
we already knew how to prepare for the assessment though..
we've figured out that Dr Fauzi will only have his class, teaching or assessment in medical ward 6..
so, what we would do is to see what are the cases in the ward and which cases have the potential of being the case for assessment..
definitely not the patient who are not conscious or are in the confusional state..
like today, after deduction was made by me and Ida, we guessed that Dr might pick the case of this particular patient with fluid overload..
and it turned out that we were right!
well, at least i got more time to study more..
so, tonight, i was going to repay back my sleep time..
and go back home tomorrow morning..
feels like it was ages since last time i went back home..
i mean spent the overnight at home..

okay the moral of the story today is never dilly dally in your work!
i wonder when would i ever change that?

bedtime story: A Saturday Adventure..

Today, i went to the ward with Fana, as I promised her yesterday and clerked and examined a few patients. We started by taking a history from a dengue patient, who was a good looking 21 years old (same as me) Malay male and examined his GIT system ( which Fana told the patient that I want to examine him ). That was very naughty of her and I had no way but to proceed. I have this sydrome where I feel awkward examining a young, healthy looking male patient. However, I kept reminding myself that whatever i was going to do is for the sake of learning. Then, we went to another patient, and now it was Fana's turn to examine an older male patient. The patient's liver was obviously enlarged and it was actually my first time to see a very large liver ( Fana told me she had seen bigger ). Then, she showed me a patient who she had once examine and taught me on hand and joints examination. the patient had gouty tophi and he also taught us on how the doctors would examine him. (see, we can learn a lot from patient..). Next, we went to a 70 year old Chinese patient and get permission from him to examine his upper and lower limb. eventhough he is 70, he has an abnormally strong power. Fana was complaining that her wrist ached due to the uncle's strength when testing for his wrist. There's a few interesting finding that we found the patient had such as lower limb fasciculation and intentional tremor. Finally, we took a history from a middled aged Malay lady who was a known case of Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA) for 3 years. She told us how she first get the symptoms and how she was diagnosed later on. We were very excited because she had a typical clinical features of RA (just like in books, as fana would say).
We decided to stop and have lunch as it was nearly afternoon. i thought of having nasi lemak as my lunch but unfortunately, the nasi lemak stall was closing when we get there. We then decided to have lunch outside. so, I drove my car with Fana as the road guide to Bandar Sri Permaisuri, searching for a place to have lunch. We finally found the same junction where we come from and realized that we were actually went around and get nowhere..(haha). Well, we finally have our lunch at Tesco where Fana and I bought at Little Wok stall at the food court. What was interesting about the food was that the food was not served on a plate, but instead was served in a little wok ( thus the name of the stall) or what we called 'kuali'. Owh, before we had our lunch, Fana realized that she had lost her RM50 (which she slip it in her white coats' pocket). This was actually her second time of loosing RM50 ( the first one was when we were at Tanjung Karang, at Bazar Ramadhan). We tried to find it in my car but it was nowhere to be seen. Fana called a couple of friends who happened to be at the ward that time to pick it up for her if they were to found the money. I had nagged her for not bringing her purse and carelessly slip the money like that. Well, until this moment, she hadn't found it yet and was sulking about it..hmm..back to the story, after we had our lunch and bought a few things, we headed back to the college..Well, that's it for now..my eyes are drooping right now (ptosis..hehe)..till my tips of fingers meet the keyboard again..

depressed...

It is only about 3 weeks before the final semester exam and only a few days before my observed long case assessment. Recently, I went to the wards more often compared to the previous posting that i had. However, I still feel that I am lacking of clinical skills. And my knowledge about diseases is so weak that it scared me more of the coming assessment. Last Monday, I don't know why, but I woke up with a most helpless feeling and thought, why am I here? Is it really my fate that i will becoming a doctor one day? Do i have the quality and criteria of becoming a good doctor? Will i do harm to the patients by me becoming a doctor? All these sort of questions came to my mind and had kept me confused and stressed me that i felt like crying and felt like my heart wanted to burst. I really need someone to talk to then but i was going to class that morning. It was no one to be blamed of why I am here as I chose this path in the beginning and it was no one to be blamed if I ever fall down along the way because the most major cause then would be ME! I felt this way and was so down not because i have been tortured by doctors or not because of others but I am really dissapointing myself. I felt like loosing interest in medicine day by day and felt that I need motivation once in a while. Because when i lost interest, i also lost a thing that drive me to study ( in other words, I have become a very lazy person in terms of studying). As my father once told me, even there is something which is hard to achieve, but with interest and desire, they can push me to the goal no matter how hard it is. I can't simply give up now that I'm halfway to my goal and can only move forward. Now, I can only pray to God to lighten up my heart, and help me to open my eyes. That day, I felt a bit better when i met with my friends and talked to them. Sometimes, i think, my condition of staying far from my friends have somehow influenced my emotions and when I meet them, at least they distract me from thinking those 'internal conflict' question. So, family and friends, I really need your words of encouragement or advices to help me through this internal conflict..

You Are An Intro-Extrovert!

Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shy You've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going on You enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time. Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need variety! Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along.

Are You An Extroverted or Introverted Girl?

You Are a Green Crayon

Your world is colored in harmonious, peaceful, natural colors. While some may associate green with money, you are one of the least materialistic people around. Comfort is important to you. You like to feel as relaxed as possible - and you try to make others feel at ease. You're very happy with who you are, and it certainly shows! Your color wheel opposite is red. Every time you feel grounded, a red person does their best to shake you.

What Color Crayon Are You?

p/s: 'thanx' to fana, now i am infected to the quizzes site and can't help posting the results here..huhu..well, some of the are soo right with myself..

What Hakimah Amni Binti Muhammad Razif Means

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

this is how my room looks like..