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Chorus
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Izinku masuk

Ulang Chorus

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Luahkanlah isi hatimu
Luahkanlah isi hatimu

Ulang Chorus 2X

Luahkanlah ku perlu tahu
Luahkanlah isi hatimu

new hobby ;)

Crafts has always been my interest..up untill now, i've tried quite a few kind of crafts such as card making, crayon paintings, crosstitches..and currently, making handmade bags/pouches..for those who know me very well, they know i'm very obsessed with bags. but not many out there suits my taste( yet, still got a lot of bags in my collection ;) ), so i wish to make a few myself during this holiday..

i'm not really into sewing esp wif machine, but to make things i want,i'm starting to learn how to use one from my mom..now, i've started making small things and am just getting the hang of using a sewing machine..tutorials from the internet and my mom helps a great lot for newbies like me..and there are endless of ideas from the net that i just cant get enough of browsing through them..

my mom has been soooo generous and kind to buy me the materials for getting started..owh, and also my dad...thanx Mak & Ayah..luv u guys always..and it was very fun when me, my mom and my sister were all making crafts..lucky for us to have a common interest ;) so, ok, these pics are what i've made (wif my mom's help) for now..

Straight Sided Triangular (prism) Cosmetic Bag

these were based on the tute i found here.

Buttons bracelet:

Ring Cushion

hmm, there's another one but no photos taken yet..it's a bag from the travelling agency, Reliance, which i will bring to Beijing today..since everyone in our group got the same bag, i did a few 'touch up' to personalize it ;)

p/s: will be going to beijing today for 5 days wif my dear frens( asmal, marina, nad and syafiqah)...excited and anxious...it's the first time that i went oversea without my family..okay guys, wish me a safe journey ~

hari meng'packing' n mengangkut..

malas nk cite pnjang2..hehe..adik dh dgn rajinnye cite pasal ni..\
sile lah ke sane klu nk tahu cite ye..hehe..
nk tido awal ni, sok nk g ikut asmal n syafiqah wat pasport..x sbar nk gi vacation..hehe..
k, tata, n gud nite..

Families Are Forever

Sejak beberapa bulan dulu, aku ade terjumpe dengan suatu desktop drawer yg berwarna pink dn diperbuat daripada kayu di Carefour berhmpiran rumahku..aku bukanlah penggemar/big-fan of pink but the fact that it is wooden is what hooked me..aku dh berangan2 alangkah comelnye jika diletakkan di atas meja console yg baru dibeli di bilikku itu..bolehla simpan brg2 mekap ku..hehe..tetapi memandangkan harganya yg agak di luar kemampuanku (tambahan pula tengah pokai ni), jadi ku simpan sajela angan2 tu...sejak dari tu, setiap kali pegi ke Carefour, mesti lalu kt bhgian stationary walaupun xde pen/pensil/alat tulis yg nk dibeli..semate2 hndak mencuri tengok drawer impianku itu..cewah..mcm rindu kt buah hati lak..nasib baik dh dkt2 exam tuh, dh jarang pi sane, so xdela pk sgt..hehe..

Maka apabila exam dh abis dan cuti pn bermule..aku mencube nasibku dengan membodek ayahku supaya men'sponsor'kan laci itu kepadaku..

Scene 1
Amni: Ehem2..ayah~..
Ayah: ye..
Amni: erm, ade satu laci ni kan, dh lame amni berkenan tapi harge die mahal sket la
yah..boleh x ayah sponsorkan kt Amni? (dengan senyuman paling manis yg aku leh wat)
Ayah: Laci ape?
Amni: ala, desktop drawer, tp sbb die kayu,sbb tuh mahal sket agaknye..
Ayah: brape?
Amni: dlm rm**
Ayah: hmm, okla..
Amni:trime kasih ayah ;) (smbil melompat2 dlm hati)

Ayah dh bagi green light..wah, hatiku berbunge riang..x sabar2 rasenye nk trus pegi adopt itu drawer..haha..tp ade la pulak aral melintang yg menguji kesabaranku ini, maka lepas 2-3 ari baru ada kesempatan utk ke Carefour..

Scene 2
Amni: Mak, jom kite pegi Carefour nak?Amni nk beli drawer tu la..
Mak: Hmm, ok..
di Carefour, bhgian stationary
Amni: ........... :(
Mak: Nape Amni, ade x drawer tu?
Amni: Dah xde dh mak..berbulan2 amni tgk ade kt sini..tup-tup bile amni nk beli, ade pulak org lain beli..huhu..frustnye amni, mak.. :(
Mak: Dh tgk btol2 ke?(sambil mencari di rak berhampiran)tp yela Amni, hargenye pn dh xde..nak buat camane, xde rezeki amni la tuh..
Amni: :(
Mak: mehla kite cari t-shirt kat sane...(usaha memujuk anaknye yg dh masam mencuke)

Scene 3(makan malam di rumah)
Ayah: Macam mane, dh beli ke drawer tu?
Amni: Nk beli apenye ayah, dh xde dh, ade org lain beli..geram btol amni, punyela berbulan2, xde org nk beli, bile amni nk, xde pulak..hish..
Ayah:.......

Jadi setelah beberapa hari, lalu dptla aku melupakan buah hatiku itu sdikit demi sdikit..abih tuh, xkn nk meraung pulak..ala, drawer je pun..(sedapkan ati sndiri)


Pada suatu malam yg hening, lbih kurng jam 1.00 pg..sedang ku asyik mengadap intrnet dlm bilik..tetibe pintu bilik di buka dgn perlahan dr luar..rupe-rupenye, mak, dgn mate terpisat2(sbb sblum tu tido kt ruang tamu, time tu baru naik atas), masuk ke bilik ku, letakkan satu plastik Cosway di tepi katilku sambil mengucapkan "Happy Birthday" dlm nada yg mengantuk, dan berlalu pergi ke biliknye..aku pn gelakkan la mak sbb comel btol rupenye dgn muke ngantok itu, masih nk wish anak die happy birthday..padahal tahun2 sudah, wish aku keesokkan pagi je..pastu, tros la capai plastik cosway dn buka la..dh tau ni hadiah hari jadi..dlm hati dok pk2..ape ye mak bg tahun ni..mcm besar je dlm kotak ni..kotak wrne pink lak tu..bile dh bukak plastik tuh, tgn ni menggapai la kt birai atas kotak tu dlm usaha membuka kotak hadiah..aik, nape x leh bukak penutup kotak ni?belek punye belek, Laaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!Maaaaaaaaaakkkk!!! Bergegar rumah tuh mlm2 bute dgr aku jerit...meluru aku ke bilik mak aku...mak aku yg baru nk msuk toilet,tersengih je..."Sampai ati mak ni!!!mase bile mak beli LACI tu???" Mak boleh pulak sengih memanjang dgr aku membebel2 kt situ..Ayah pulak yg dh lena tido mestila terbangun punye dek kebisingn aku..kononnye baru berkire2 nk sergah aku pasal buat bising..pastu t'dgr pulak omelan2 ku, Ayah yg masih baring,terus duduk, dgn mate merah2 bru t'bgn dr tido, ckp "Happy Birthday!!" smbil turut tersengih2....ooooo...komplot rupenye diorang nih...hahaha..barula diorng crite btapa geli hatinye menahan gelak tengok muke aku yg masam mencuke bile frust x dpt beli drawer itu ari...haha..terasela kobodohan diri..tapi xpe, mlm tuh trase sgt happy..mmgla happy sbb dpt present tuh, tapi lagi happy bile pikirkan betape sweeeeeet dan comeeeelllllllnye parents ku tu...N this birthday juge 1st time aku dpt a birthday card from the whole family..



Oh ye, kisah adek2ku juge amat sweeeeet..diorng ni dh beli hadiah utk aku awal2 lagiey..n bile aku balik bercuti, dlm dok seminggu, asyk tgk muke aku, diorng ni x sbar2 nk bg hadiah kt aku..yg Adina, si bongsu, bg paling awal, siap suh bukak terus lak tuh..dl 2-3 ari pastu, mahira pulak bagi suh bukak present die bg..time tuh lagi 3 ari nk besday aku..mule2 aku x nk sbb nnti, time besday aku, xde hadiah lak utk dibuke..x beshla..tapi klu dh slalu dpn mate, tergugat jugak aku..dn akhrnye aku bukak jugela hadiahnye..dn hadiah2 mereka sangat comel...bagus citarasa diorng ni..hehe.. yg sorang lagi fariza, disebabkan die pn baru abis exam jugak,mcm aku, jadi aku paham ketidaksempatan masanye cari hadiah utk aku, jadi aku maafkan kelewatan beliau..hihi...Last but not least, i luv u ols

31 March 2010: D-Day

Okay..here i am..updating this blog after been deserted by its own owner for ages..bak kate my sister, "agaknye dh ade living creature dh pn kt blog along tuh.."Anyway,d last entry was about me envying others for graduating, convo,etc n believe it or not, Alhamdulillah, now i have graduated from d medical school n insyaAllah will start working in june n attending d convo in august..

The whole 1 week of theory paper, osce day(long case n short cases) and 31 march 2010 are the moments which wouldn't be easily forgotten esp when the dean, Prof Lokman announced d names of each one of us who passed..it was announced in Dewan Auditorium UKMMC at 4.15pm according to our matric numbers. Among me and my 3 best friends(asmal, nadiah zaki & marina), nad's name was announced first, followed by me, asmal n lastly marina..The palpitation i had was getting more n more worse as the numbers were getting near to mine..the feeling couldn't be described with words which i'm sure most of us would have agree..the moment nad was announced passed, i prayed really hard for me n others to also pass and be able to share this joy together..and the moment my name was announced, all emotions were there at the same time..thankful, relieved, joy with tears, but still anxious for still not knowing the results of the other two..and when marina's name was called, only then i was able to be truly happy..immediately after the dean had called the last person and dismiss us, i called my parents, and grandparents telling them the big news..they were so happy to know that i made it, n i was (n still am) even more happy for making them happy..later, i found out that my father was looking at his blackberry on his desk all the time waiting for my call that evening while my mother was anxiously waiting at home and expressing her anxiety in her fb status..hehe..when i got home that day, they were already there waiting for me..my parents had even post to their fb about my result and getting congratz from d relatives (faster than me, huh)..haha..

Being only a few days from my birthday, i take this as the biggest birthday present ever esp when i saw the happy faces of my parents & when they said they are proud of me..

comeback

yeah,d brpe lame x update?hmm..almost for 8 months..

why?simple,juz x rase nk berblogging..dun know why had that feeling though..

ok, enuf bout that..

i'm very lonely now..

all my housemates were sent for posting outside..

teluk intan, slim river and tanjung karang..

n kebetulan they all went at d same time..

so here i am..alone in my room..

so bored n not knowing wut to do..

(padahal byk je bende nk kene wat..hehe)

eventhough this weekend is not like a weekend..

all thanx to the Mecca( medical career carnival)..

well, at least my housemates were here..

(were forced to attend that thing)

n spending d whole weekend with housemates n bestfriends..

very nice..

since start postings ni, everyone were busy with their own life,

even ngn housemates pn pernah 2 hari baru berjumpe..

i'm kind of worried rite now..

with my study grup..

which seems not progressing at all..

i'm one that really depends on study group..

not 100% dependent, but it surely does helps me a lot..

pro-exam is juz a few months away..*sigh*

it's convo fever rite now..

quite a numbers of my frens actually graduate dis year..

including ones who are really close to me rite now..

glad to see their happy faces on d big day..

even x dpt pegi, at least looking at their pics inspires me..

am very happy for them..

fret not, amni, ur time is soon to come..

walaupun x sabar nk tinggu that day comes,

it also fears me wif d responsibility that comes wif it..

for me it means-u re now released into the world of reality..

n am i actually ready for that?

another song that keeps playing again & again in my head recently..



It takes a crane to build a crane
it takes two floors to make a story
it takes an egg to make a hen
it takes a hen to make an egg
there is no end to what i'm saying

it takes a thought to make a word
and it takes some words to make an action
and it takes some work to make it work
it takes some good to make it hurt
it takes some bad for satisfaction

ah la la la la la la la life is wonderful
ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
ah la la la la
ah mmmm

it takes a night to make it dawn
and it takes a day to you yawn brother
and it takes some old to make you young
it takes some cold to know the sun
it takes the one to have the other

and it takes no time to fall in love
but it takes you years to know what love is
and it takes some fears to make you trust
it takes those tears to make it rust
it takes the dust to have it polished, yea

ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
ha la la la la la la life goes full circle
ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
ha la la la

it is so
and it is so

it takes some silence to make sound
and it takes a loss before you found it
and it takes a road to go nowhere
it takes a toll to make you care
it takes a hole to make a mountain

ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
ha la la la la la la life goes full circle
ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
ha la la la la la la life is meaningful
ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
ha la la la la la

it is so wonderful
and it is so meaningful
it is so wonderful
it is meaningful
it is wonderful
it is meaningful
it goes full circle
wonderful
meaningful
full circle
wonderful

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Betapa Aku Cinta Padamu

Papaparara..Ooo...Aa...Subidu

Dihati Ini
Hanya Dirimu
Yang Aku Sayang, Yang Aku Rindu
Setiap Saat
Setiap Waktu
Kuingin Engkau Slalu Ada Disisiku

Izinkan Aku Kecup Keningmu
Izinkan Aku Peluk Dirimu
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Betapa Aku Cinta Padamu
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Papaprappp..Uu..Aa.....

Dihati Ini
Hanya Dirimu
Yang Aku Sayang, Yang Aku Rindu
Setiap Saat
Setiap Waktu
Kuingin Engkau Slalu Ada Disisiku

Izinkan Aku Kecup Keningmu
Izinkan Aku Peluk Dirimu
Izinkan Aku Hadir Didalam Mimpimu
Betapa Aku Cinta Padamu
Betapa Aku Ingin Dirimu
Yang Kan Menjadi Bagian Dari Hidupku, Oh..Kasih...

Download lagunya disini : Betapa Aku Cinta Padamu-Afgan

Saye di tagged!!

Demi menjawab tag cik naniko ini, saye merajinkan diri saye ini..apekah??hehe..

1. Apakah benda yang paling penting dalam hidup kamu?
- purse dan intinya..

2. Apakah benda terakhir yang kamu beli dengan wang sendiri?

- baju

3. Di manakah tempat impian perkahwinan kamu?
- erm..di rumah saye..

4. Berapa lama anda rasa hubungan kamu berkekalan?

- insyaAllah selama2nya..

5. Adakah anda dilamun cinta?
- hmm..cinta pada Allah, ibu bapa, saudara dan sahabat..

6. Di manakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam?
- Nandos

7. Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?

- Inkheart-Cornelia Funke

8. Apakah nama penuh kamu?
- Hakimah Amni Binti Muhammad Razif

9. Kamu lebih senang dengan mak atau ayah?
- mak

10. Namakan seseorang yang kamu ingin jumpa untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidup anda?

- bakal suamiku..hehe..

11.Sebutkan 8 nama sahabat yang paling rapat dengan kamu?
- 8 nama yang paling rapat sekarang: marina, asmal, nad, fana, syafiqah, ejom, intan, dilah

12. Adakah kamu mencuci pakaian anda sendiri?
- erm, tidak..mesin yg membasuhnye..

13. Tempat yang paling seronok kamu mahu pegi?
- pulau pangkor, pulau redang..

14. Pelukan atau ciuman?
- pelukan DAN ciuman

15. Butirkan 5 perkara tentang orang yang tag kamu.

hanani:
-coursemate n study-group mate
-duk kat padang midin..
- suke masak n baking..
-pernah bawak sushi gi study group..thnx nani..
- baik n senang berkawan ngn die..

16. 8 perkara yang amat saya gilai
- shopping..ade musim tau..skrg musim shopping baju..hehe
- lagu2 best..skrg suke dgr lagu afgan: betapa aku cinta padamu
- cokelat
- novel inggeris, fiction eg: harry potter, narnia, golden compass, his dark material's trilogy
- all bout harry potter (novels, films, websites, etc)
-makan..
- tidur..
- internet..

17. 8 perkataan yang sering di ucapkan
-...kot...
-malasla..
-teruk betol!!

18. 8 buah buku yang paling terbaru dibaca.

- Inkheart
- apley's system of orthopaedics n fracture
- UM orthopaedic examination
- McNab Orthopaedic: backpain
-apley's orthopaedics examination
- sunflower paediatric
- Nelson's paediatric
- paediatric protocol

19. 8 lagu yang saya boleh dengar berulang kali.
- betapa aku cinta padamu-afgan
- yang aku tau cinta itu indah-afgan feat nagita slavina
- life is wonderful- jason mraz
- mau yang besar-pianka
- sad tango- rain
- semoga abadi- misha omar
-ku tunggu jandamu-irwansyah
- cinta ini membunuhke- d'masiv

19. 8 perkara yang saya pelajari tahun lalu
-huhu..setahun lalu tuh..formally, 4 posting mase tahun lepasla:surgery, o&g, jkm, medicine..informally, byk n x igt dah..

20. Mari men'tag' 8 orang lain.
-bley x nk skip part nih..heheh..

happy & sad raya..

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well, stlh lme meninggalkan ruangan ini, sehingga ade yg terbatuk2 bile singgah sini, ni la nk
cite sket pe yg jd raye aidiladha yg baru seminggu berlalu..

as usual, family aku akan beraye kat kl je tiap2 kali raye aji memandangkan kampung yg nun jauh di besut..so, tahun ni, weekend before raye tuh, memandangkan semue pn ade di rumah, ayah pn bawakla kitorang jln2 gi shopping di sunway pyramid..aku klu bab2 shopping nih, happy sakanla (heheh).. pastu, yg peliknye, di akhir hari, ayah aku lak yg beriye2 shopping baju die..sedangkan aku, pulang dgn tgn kosong (cis, xleh jd nih, x prnah jd cmni..huhu)

al-kisahnye, sebelum kuar rmh pagi tuh, kitorang(aku, mak n adik2) komen la dressing ayah aku ni yg asik2 same je rupenye..sluar itam, ngn t-shirt yg ntah zaman bile die beli..
aku pn korek2 la almari ayah n jmpela sehelai sluar yg tidak berwarna itam dan casual shirt yg cantik sket..then, mak aku la yg cadangkan alang2 nk gi kedai ni, ape kate kitorang make over ayah aku..wah, bernas2..so, ape lgi, sampai2 je, we all carila kedai baju utk ayah aku dulu..then, kitorang pilih2, pastu biar ayah aku yg decide nk amik yg mane (yela, die nye duit kan..).sambil2 die decide tuh, aku n adik2 pn pegila meronda2 dulu ke kedai2 lain..mak mestila stay ngan ayah(merpati due sejoli..heh.. )
dh jnji dh nk jmpe kat Nichii (kedai pakaian pempuan)..pusing punye pusing, x de lak baju yg
aku berkenan..adik2 aku dh jmpe baju diorang tp parents aku still x muncul2 lagi..lame gak ar tunggu..
.:di kala menunggu:..:siap ade tag Nichii lagi:.

.:tadaa:.

.:ni namenye x de keje:.

.:mak pn nk join venture gak:.

last2 ble parents aku muncul, rupe2nye dey all smpat singgah due tige kedai lagi beli baju ayah ..(amboi2)..baik tol mood ayah ari tuh..last2 ayah aku beli 2 pasang sluar n 2 helai shirt plus sehelai jaket..aku? kan dh ckp td x beli pape..huhu..x pe2, window shopping pn jadile..


.:tgkla ayah aku ni berposing sakan ngn baju barunye:.

.:ade hati nk jadi model tuh..heheh:.

.:abihla ayah aku sorang nih..hihi:.

psst: esoknye, kitorang gi d curve..kononnye nk try makan kat d street yg ala2 omputih nye stail tu..ayah aku ni x abih lagi angin beli baju die, smpat beli lagi sehelai shirt..ish3..seb baek ari tuh aku ade gak la beli sumthing (novel 'inkheart'-x abis bace lg tp mmg best)..and kitorang makan kat thai express..fuh mmg sdap n lain dr yg lain..

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now, here comes the sad part during raye..ianye berkenaan dengan kucing kesayangan keluargaku, Nami..bagi yg pernah bace ttg kisahnye setahun lalu, mesti tau betapa Nami ni bermakne bgi kami sekeluarge..jikalau setahun lalu, di malam raye aidiladha, kami kehilangan Nami utk seketika (3 bulan die melarikan diri), tapi kali ini, genap setahun, di malam raye juge die meninggalkan kami utk selamanye..

Nami disahkan menghidap Feline Immunodeficiency Virus,FIV (bersamaan HIV klu pada manusia) lebih kurang 2 bulan lepas..mmg tidak mengejutkan aku sewaktu dpt berite tuh dari mak aku, memandangkan recently, Nami kerap benar mengalami infection yg pelbagai..fungal infection, conjunctivitis, pneumonia, etc..satu persatu penyakit dtg silih berganti..pada pendapat ku, kemungkinan besar Nami dijangkiti FIV sewaktu die menghilangkan diri dari rumah setahun lepas sebab sepanjang dalam jagaan kami, die hanye dilepaskan di dalam rumah dan halaman blakang rumah (itupun with supervision..cewah..)

Agaknye, mase disahkan tuh, mungkin dah ade AIDS pun..sejak 2 bulan tuh, keadaan die merosot dan amat menyedihkan..tak lagi aktif, berat badan susut (obvious giler muscle wasting die), muscle weakness..
and for the past 3 weeks, each time aku balik rmh weekend, keadaannye bertambah teruk..progressively worsening muscle weakness sampaikan nk berjalan ke 'jamban' die utk passing urine pn x sempat dan leading to urinary incontinence..sampai at one stage he cannot even stand to feed himself..makan pn kne bersuap..minum with syringe..btol2 mcm jage org sakit..until finally, nk angkat kepala pn x larat..bile aku angkat kpale die dh mcm kepala ayam yg baru kne smbelih tuh..tgk die menderite cmtu mmg menyayat hati..lagi sedih bile sometimes nmpak airmatenye mengalir..walau keadaan die cmtu, die still nk mkn..that's d worst part-bile still nk mkn but keadaan x m'izinkan..no, that's not the worst, d worst was when he couldn't swallow d food and we had to push it down with syringed water..

and, on d evening before raye, that is, malam raya, we all bace yasin n doa if umurnya masih panjang, sembuhkanlah dgn segera n klu ditakdirkan akan pergi, biarla disegerakan dan hentikan penderitaannya..and Alhamdulillah, jam 10 mlm tuh, Nami menghembuskan nafasnye yg terakhir dgn mak aku disisinya..disahkan ngn unresponsive, dilated pupil..betapa hibanya kami mlm tu..tapi dlm sedih2 tuh, mak aku sempat lagi suruh cek nadi Nami tuh..manela aku tau nk cek kat mane pulse kucing..adoyai..Later, aku n ayah jadi 'penggali kubur ' mlm tu..nasib baik still ade tanah seciput kat depan rumah..terase lawak pn ade mase tuh bile kitorang siap gali and tanam Nami menghadap kiblat..

begitulah kisahnye kesedihan di malam raye (n pagi raye)..sampaikan mak aku pn x de mood nk masak nasi himpit n kuah kacang..sudahnye menu kami di pagi raye hanyelah lakse terengganu..